you are what you eat

Saturday, November 6, 2010

GREEN MONSTER OF JEALOUSY

i seriously think i'm pms-ing, but its good to post when you are cause you can actually be angry without being angry at anyybody. on facebook people just call you emo and unworthy of their "like"'s. HELLO! not saying i've got experience, its just my personal view HAHA.

who knew the encyclopedias your mom bought to crush you to death when you were 4 yrs old would come in handy at 14 (GOING TO 15 MIND YOU). i'm gonna make some really cool gifts for junyin when i visit her in london dude! all in the name of science!

its so nice to babble on here with no one judging. well this IS online but its so old is practically growing viruses or something.

i remembered watching ellen on channel 5 and telling myself i'm gonna be a talk show host one day. but then i look in the mirror and notice my black hair, missing nose bridge and (thank god not slit eyes) listen to my singlish. who the heck would want to watch a talk show with a CHINESE GIRL on it?! no offence, but i wouldnt. not like i would even be screened in america, and ew, mediacorp is so gross. unless of course i move to another country not so bad considering there's nothing to do here. here as in singapore. plenty of fun thigns to do on my bed, thats where the fun comes in cause i get to sleep. and where i sleep is where i dream.

someday people are gonna admit my words are poetry, and they're gonna analyse and quote my facebook posts and have my blog posts as unseen prose.. if life is still as pathetic then. HAHA TAKE THAT SHAKESPEARE.

my 'non-emo" rule is NOT working. i thought i was doing people a favour by not turning emotional. no one likes a girl who gets emotional. i dont like girls who get emotional. or rather, ACT emotional but its just because theyre attention seekers. wow, people better not read this till a LONG TIME has passed,

if being "non-emo" turns me into a zit popping exam failing damaged white hair cultivating woman, then i'd rather rid myself of all emotions. wouldnt it be so easy if you just couldnt care less about those papers where they actually asses how smart you are, them and their stupid boy penises equipped with all that testosterone and not to mention, something called life.

wooooosh that felt good, spilling out non sensical gibberish for the world to see on my hamburger blog. love.word.vomit.

maybe i secretly wish for people to see this, quite a pity to have it all remain hidden right, i mean look at all the wonderful things i have said that totally inspore your life. but then again i'm not interested to hear what critics say.

you know what, i love people. but sometimes people you love get you so disappointed you just wish they knew the right thing to say the right time. maybe critisizing people too much is what boosted my ego. wow, that sucks.

i hate my phone, i have a blackberry 9700 and i hate my phone.
*note to all future generations: you probably think a bb 9700 is peanuts compared to your iphone 1000009 but i have to tell you, i was pretty cool when i was your age HAHA.

nah i dont hate my phone. i hate the content.

right, i dont mix work/emotions with my personal life, hey that sounds ironic. but i myself understand it. good.

i should stop watching greys anatomy. its killing me, i cant get meredith greys voice out of my head each time a smart quote pops into my head. i've turned my life into a whole freaking drama series. well hey, it might actually be worth watching!

your life is gonna flash before you when you die, make sure its worth watching.

i am going to writeeeeee and writeeeee until that blue scroller at the side gets so smaall you have to use a microscope to even see it. i shall make this post really longgggggggggggg.

really suffering from insomnia now, i know its retarded to listen to avril lavinge: let go. as your lullaby but then again, it beats crying doesnt it.

i'm gonna have kick ass fun reading all this when i come back six months later and hopefully when my life has taken a better turn.

eaten. burrp. *Saturday, November 06, 2010*

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