you are what you eat

Saturday, May 9, 2009

DONT HAVE TO STATE THE OBVIOUS

i just lost the very long pot i made, roar.
what can i say about 3rd class drills test. i can only say that the next impossible thing my squad can do it to surprise the ma'ams cause we've disappointed them so many times. c'mon we all know that, it'd be a lie if we all kept quiet.
i had a very very long phone call with l when i got back. i cant tell you how much we all noticed the amount of effort effing wlm put in to help us. sometimes i almost hate her for trying so hard because it makes the feeling even worse when we all do what we do best...sigh..

i screwed it up so bad. it was not surprising really that i've just disappointed 100000 people in my life, including myself.
i cant believe how supportive my friends in school were. and those in cell grp did nothing but to encourage me and all aye. all the ex seniors, seniors even those from other schools and the ci's from ap. -.-
i'm such a fucking failure.

this feeling will be in here for a really long time. i even had that extra 15 min to help, but i just made it worse aye.

if you asked me to die right now i'd ask you to let me redo my 3rd class first.

eaten. burrp. *Saturday, May 09, 2009*

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