you are what you eat

Sunday, May 31, 2009

TC= TOILET CLEANER

anyway i changed my skin and i like spastic and random ones like this and my burger so i shall smile whenever i come to post.

my tagboard will remain gone for now cause i'm such a noob and i need casper (who is now at the gym getting fit and healthy not like me) to help and get it all fixed and done (:

eaten. burrp. *Sunday, May 31, 2009*

PICK A STAR ON THE DARK HORIZON AND FOLLOW THE LIGHT

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

church was good again (: as it is every week. i really like long worship (: y'know the songs just lemme feel better about everythingggg, like np. and when we had that prayer in our cell today xy and peiling were so nice (: made me feel so much better. everytime i go to church, i'd think of np then those pretty songs make is so much better.

i hate np now. i srsly cant stand it. its so stupid. with its retarded rules and blind people that dont see anything. but then at the same time i wanna rennnnnn and try to do well in it. cause yea, its still a blardee hell cca.
but if act enthu again and people just ignore me sure as hell i might just walk away during evaluation lah. damn friggin annoying.
haha my juniors might just be complaining about me like that next time. ;) lol. ohmyshit i'm sec 3 next yr (if i dont retain)
anyway i like "the call" by regina spektor (: esp the lyrics. (:

eaten. burrp. *Sunday, May 31, 2009*

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Saturday, May 30, 2009

TURN OUR MOURNING INTO DANCINGGGG

haha i saw vlow at tll todayyeee. and she just tagged on her com when i was right next to her.

haha tll wasnt bad. discussed some presentation thingy with serene and jen. omg the vocab section was damn stupid. they give all the chim words but suddenly one "retreive" there. and so i had to find a chim cousin word for that. in the end it just turn out to be "find" -,,-
my picture on my tll card is HORIBBBBBLE. gross.

synod youth games! i'm quite happy i went. haha i stayed at si ens grp for a while before moving onto mine. i was like 2 hours late and they hadnt even started. haha theres this andrew guy in my grp who was super hilarious. like srsly. and cheryl was damn giggly! i think we communicate by giggling. during the race we were just giggling for all the blardee 4 laps man. lol. anyway it was fun. really fun. no one could guess i was sec2 omg ;) coooool. anyway i must reach like 165 and stop. cause 170 is kinda too tall.
synod youth games was fun fun fun. people there are so nice. random peole just getting into grps singing songs (:
i cant wait for church tmr. long worship!

green tea kills sperms! replenish with mango sperm drink! (mango = free pee)

haha sean bing jamie and i went down to j8 (icne it was so close) for dinnnerrr (i'm quite proud of myself cause i skipped lunch and ate spicy stuff to help loose weighy ;) BUT i drank starbucks after that :/, at thomson plaza cause the prize was a 10 voucher. but i dindt finish it though! haha) anyway aunty sabrina dropped me off (: thanks. even though i could just walk bcak. haha seans bro, sabastian (?) is really cute! damn cute when he was at popular. haha i'm gonnna steal him one day.

eaten. burrp. *Saturday, May 30, 2009*

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Thursday, May 28, 2009

HELO HELO

last day of schoool!!!! omg happy happy. haha shits y know the travel dclaration form, i actually remembered to sign it, but i forgot to bring my silly ol file to school. haha. omg tmr i must must start with physics notesssss. must must. so i can try to improve my ppr.
i'm really happy with my ppr this term (: cause i'm so stupid and ihave never hit 70, though close. i finally hit seven a's in my ppr. i'm really glad. but i do hope i dont drop next term. cause that happens to me. and i'm stupid most of the time, so its a possibility. and the past few tests i've been having just dont look good.

omg discovery travel and living is showing some show of finding sandwhiches in america. looks damn goooooooood. omg i'm thinking of food. as always.

today little india was boringgg. i ended up sitting next to the two wierdest people ever. and i'm talking about quite emo i-love-jap-manga/anime kind of people on the bus. i could die. and though the food was heavenly spicy-ish, it was too filling.
i got my henna (: and its nice okay.

i did library with yongzhen! haha. condemn (?) books. lol so weird. sometimes if the book was borrowed in 2001 but it looks like shit we still just chuck it into the pile cause we know no one else (unless its the same spastic person) will borrow it.

ctan is damn bad. damn biased. the sec fours pop is in the worst timing possible, with no campfire and there she goes flapping her arms like some bird while talking. wtheck. so inconvenient for everyone and she still goes "we cant please everyone, its difficult to agree with everyone" can you tell me exactly WHO are you agreeing with. WHO are you pleasing. so many of my squadmates cant make it to help ):

eaten. burrp. *Thursday, May 28, 2009*

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Monday, May 25, 2009

A: You like to drink.
B : You like people.
C : You are really silly.
D : You like to drink.
E : You are a damn good kisser.
F : You are dead sexy.
G : You never let people tell you what to do.
H : You have a very good personality and looks.
I : You are great in bed.
J : People adore you.
K : You're wild and crazy.
L: Everyone loves you.
M : You are great in bed.
N : You like to drink.
O : You are an awesome kisser.
P : You are popular with all types of people.
Q : You are a hypocrite.
R : You are freaking crazy.
S : You are easy to fall in love with.
T : You're loyal to those you love.
U : You really like to chill.
V : You are not judgmental.
W : You are very broad minded.
X : You never let people tell you what to do.
Y : Best g/f b/f anyone could ever ask for.
Z : Always ready

T : You're loyal to those you love.
A: You like to drink.
N : You like to drink.

Q : You are a hypocrite
I : You are great in bed.

J : People adore you
U : You really like to chill.
N : You like to drink.

haha oh gosh i steal all these funny things from vanessa low,haha i like to drink! :O yes i like strawberry milk (: and coke. and melted ice cream (gross but then...)
haha shits i'm a hypocrite. haha i shall accept that. i shall be hypocrites to hypocrites.
haha maybe i shouldnt call it "chill" i call it "slack" or "procrastinate" cause i really have bad habits i should kick ):
e learning is a waste of time. really. kay maybe its not, but anything you consider not important is a waste of time. so to me e learning is not very important. i'd like to go to school (:
the chinese work was really, ): i've alr given up.
for science i finally realised i'm in for it. physics will be a disaster if i dont buck up omg. i must must find my science file and study all i can during june!!

ahh we are freaking out over pop man ballons bras mirrors roses cakes shoes face cream macs. omg. haha

i just realsied i cannot go for SC2 outing anymore because of the stupid taiwan trip mommy planned that EVERYONE was against! like, she didnt care about swine flu at all omg. just because she heard it was a good shopping opportunity. and i told her ten thousand times i didnt want to go. and she still went to book my ticket! people say wow at least your mom brings you overseas. but hello! what if your mom kept doing things you didnt like! and bringing you overseas was one of them! now instead of enjoying bbq and having a hell of a good time with ap people, i will be in some cheena country buying DU JIA-ISH gross clothes!

eaten. burrp. *Monday, May 25, 2009*

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Sunday, May 24, 2009

POPCORN HELPS THE NERVES

haha we celebrated xy's and peiling's birthdays during lunch today :D
i hope gordon doesnt remember on his birthday that i owe him a cake. :D how old is he anyway

the cake was good :D (of course typical me will comment on the food rather than the celebration itself) nice chocolate flavour with crunchy bits at the bottom mannn. mmm kay i cant describe well. blame it on theresa chan who nearly didnt go through descriptive writing at all.

ANYWAY. teaching was back to pastor xiaphui and jamie and i squeezed on the one remaining chair left. omg my butt, was having muscle ache alr. haha. zhiting and jane made the cutest card ever omg haha.
aye i like weizhens jackets!

haha angels and demons wasnt bad. what scared me was the trailer before the movies, the one on "drag me to hell" OMG DAMN SCARY.
boys were making alot of noise in the cinema

i missed series of unfortunate events! grrr. i only managed to watch the weddding part. i suddenly realised how fst mr poh really is.

aye i read my horoscope in the newspaper again today. i might just get hooked if it continues to be so true.

OMG OMG. i was such a klutz today. first thing i accidentally hit jamies wound from basketball in SERMON today. luckily she didnt shout. then, during lunch i NEARLY knocked over HALF of si ens food. (it was NEARLY half not all, and i didnt eat at all so dont grumble to that extreme okay) ):

anyway aunty amy is very funny and sweet :D we like talked for one hour until 1 am last night cause we both couldnt sleep. and she told me damn alot of farnee stuff when she was young :D

haha shits singapores crime factor is damn stupid! it was about this guy breaking into pubs. and some pub owners didnt file a report cause they thought it was one of the employers. and some farnee guy said to the police
"that caused me to fire him."
"..."
"oh means i must go and apoogise"
HAHA very stupid. and he said it in the really stoned voice. with that stone face too. lol

eaten. burrp. *Sunday, May 24, 2009*

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Friday, May 22, 2009

WHAT AM I FEELING TADAY

SAGITTARIUS
overview:

You tend to attract just about everything you want this year through your warmth and magnetic Sagittarian That said, you may also go through some great transformational shifts in 2009 as you realize that your happiness no longer depends so much on possessions, but rather on the deeper meaning associated with things symbolic of love and sharing. Instead of controlling what’s happening around you, you now have experiences that perhaps you don't understand, but in allowing new insights to come in and have a voice, the rearranging of your resources and your values gives you a sense of security and growth.

By surrendering to your higher power, you realize you don’t have to struggle as much to get what you want. As you open up to the ideas and energies flowing around you, your priorities shift dramatically. And -- you'll be happy to know -- you don’t need to work as hard to enjoy sensual pleasures either!

Great opportunities arise as your explore your potential, and discover what kind of environment best serves you in your endeavors. Being in touch with this part of yourself helps you align with your higher purpose, and your drive to continue will lead to great success. Life becomes much easier when you trust that the universe will take care of you.

ohmyshit horoscopes are really true, esp the silly ol ones litong brings from life every morning! ahh. haha but so cool (:

eaten. burrp. *Friday, May 22, 2009*

JUST BECAUSE EVERYTHINGS CHANGING, DOESNT MEAN ITS NEVER BEEN THIS WAY BEFORE

omg i only had one normal lesson today (: common test was empty (THANK GAWD) in like a million years.
du jia had to go for jubilate and home econs was just the best! :D only mrs chan spoiled the whole day.
but ah wells, i dont really want to remind myself of how she pms-ed over descriptive writing except that i have to say : ___ writing wasnt even descriptive. she made up a story. like fairy tale story. she was practically just writing out the guys history! sigh.
i think my english has really dropped form primary school. but i shall try to concentrate on math and science (: both a1's this term (: but i think i'll flunk math next term.
ong meiling wasnt THAT dao today (: she was even fun. cause of people going for jubilate, all but one group alr finihsed presenting their slides to her during this week. so for 1 whole hour and 15 minutes, we were slacking. haha and she and i were just talking and crapping about np man. gossiping about the CI's which all turned out to be hers too. and who told me e ma'am was so young? i knew she couldnt have beeen so young. hahha and ong meilings face just turned.. when i told her about weixi ma'am. haha told her what an unlucky combo i had while doing topo in my first year of jtc. hahaha.

of course there were horny & racist jokes with vanna ong and ailin incuded. hahaha. and i accidentally cracked that egg shell! hahaha. was quite funny.
tricia tang must learn that when handling a school laptop, you must have a little something called PATIENCE. its a dinosaur.

lunch was macs = broke. i wanted something spicy (meaning nice chili from any stall) but everyone wanted macs so i got stuck trying to gulp down a huge cup of coke (why make medium so large!) and to digest oily, gross but oh so nice, salty and soggy fries. haha i like soggy fries! :D

i didnt go back on my word. i was totally dreading np but when i am depressed and i am suddenly around people i have no choice but to smile and laugh. cause being around fab squadmates really make me forget everything (: (but i DO have a powerful memory!) no one notices a peanut during pt cause everyone (that is that i know who were grumbling bout activity bfore) was trying to be enthu. kns litong and i counted so loudly! and we even had an innovative and pro way of saving breatj while counting for jumping jacks (;
human tangle was actually fun. for the first time in so many years of doing it. aye my group power okay. we finished one tangle in like one minute or less! hahaha. even the one that zhen zhen ma'am tried to mkae difficult for us. lol
next litong and i proposed SQUAD human tangle (: 18 people just holding onto each others hands. haha really fun. and we succedeed in what i think to be a rather short amount of time okay! :D
they did give us and extra round of circuit but ah wells, pt was the best thing that happened today. we even managed to finish like the first two circuits by 4.05 kay! okay, no idea if it is counted as a long, short or normal time length but it did seem really fast compared to other weeks.
i think i'm invisible. like during basketball i was JUST THERE in front of them. and idk am i too short for you peopleeeee i shout and shout all ignore me ): haha

i didnt care about drills. i was thinking about ap. kay quite weird to think about ap and not like drills but its not the drills in ap, its just the whole feeling. and timing was damn... i am always scared when i say timing for hentak, cause i'll be afraid if i go too fast or something.
i hate my np skirt.
okay stop it arh. whole day say we have cliques. kns during geometry i was trying to get them to talk and when i asked them questions they just totally ignore me. what could i do -.- force them to talk to me.. if they choose not to mix with us what can i do mannn ): we think of things to bond the squad, they dont like it, dont participate then we are blamed for not thinking of better stuff. aye very sad ): pls ya'll think of something kay! :D

haha i do have a powrful memory! today i asked jeraldine if i could place my book into her bag. but she was worried that i would forget (and i was certain i wouldnt) but i stuffed it in my file anyways. haha after activity i went to jeraldine and went :"aye can i take my book? see i have powerful memory! i remember!" haha jeraldine was so puzzled. and i felt so retarded when she said :"isnt it in your file" ahaha. but i DO hvae a powerful memory!!!

aye litong dont keep playing that tirck on me!! always lying to me my phone is still with the ma'ams and all. and trying to get me to find them. hmph.
but ya'll are so fun (:

anyway thank you lucia for getting me home. haha cause you wanted me to stay with you right! lol. haha. anyway colbie caillat was singing on the radio and her song made me feel so much better about np (:

listening to other favourite songs now :D
oh and yaye me i know the full lyrics of the spongebob song! sang it today during np.

nonono dont ask me about jubilate. i dont want to talk about yy. because mom has such a big difference in the reaction to go ands support yy in jubilate and me in my hot hot annual parade

eaten. burrp. *Friday, May 22, 2009*

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Thursday, May 21, 2009

ITS YOUR GODFORSAKEN LIFE TO BE LOVED LOVED LOVED

hmmm (: i like "i'm yours" (: his songs definitely make me feel better esp "lucky" made me feel so much better this week of course my squadmates do too (:
math was terrible but sigh what can i expect when the paper was on trigo i cannot do trigo only algebra ): sighh geog was that a2 again die i can never reach a1 anymore only that once i did arghhh i need every possible thing i can do well in to pull my marks upppppp
today we went to collect cardboarrdddddddddd again litong and lucia came along (: haha we had fun goofing around in that japanese restaurant :P pouring out that pathetic little bit of money from our wallets to buy that ONE set neal lol 4 people sharing one set the people there prolly thought we were crazy and i was so awesome i couldnt open the chopsticks properlyyy and i had to ask the person to get me another pair :P
we shared many many jokes and it certainly took my mind of np this morening i was really depressed i just went up to jeraldine in the field and i just sat down before people started coming down i just sat there on the track and we just talked which made me feel a wee bit better
ongmeiling is a bit annoying dont ask me why sometimes she just is
why home econs anyway teach such a boring subject of course i wont really study
i'm blogging without punctuation cause its an oh so important and unique technique some weird person used in stories from asia so i shall try it out haha feels weird
see mrs chan i remember things you teach

eaten. burrp. *Thursday, May 21, 2009*

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Wednesday, May 20, 2009

WTF

shit today was suposed to be good. i ddint even expcet fantastic just good. until jeraldine told me about the drill test papers. like whats the use of studying lah. i studied so hard and i JUST passed. like JUST. wtf. give up alr lah. np sucks. its damn useless. i prolly got the lowest out of like, everyone -.-
i hate it. i hate np now cause ots totally useless and i hate getting depressed over it but what can i do.
today wasnt bad. best day of this week so far. but i'm too depressed cause of the fucking 3rd class drills. i prolly did badly for geog and math too then. and home ec englishand surprise chinese test (thanks dujia) because all those were squashed into the last 3 days of the fucking week along with 3rd class theory. wtfuck

eaten. burrp. *Wednesday, May 20, 2009*

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Tuesday, May 19, 2009

SPIDER PIG

ahaha i'm really slacking now. like really. but yongzhen better send me the project power point side soon so i can edit. if not that ong meiling is never going to shuddup.

i keep cheating during morning jog. haha always running two rounds. oh hey, i shall remember jeraldines friends name :D test my POWERFUL memory. i have powerful memory kay. i can rememebr things that go wayyyyyyyyyyyyy back. things mommy cant remember ;D .

today lit wasnt as screwed as the last few weeks. and mrs chan is totally racist i tell you. but of course i beat her. haha and so can jeraldine. today the whole class was filled with balloons. and i tell you the pink ones were the best :D and of course i blew them all. haha. one burst in class, thank god du jia wasnt there!

i managed to skip recess :D but then i ate friggin alot for lunch, and spent alot of money. my allowance is gone. maybe i'll just stop eating recess now. eat during 9 o clock. heh.
we actually stayed at the playground at the void deck near school to munchh on..7-11 products. kirsties sister is very cute (:
haha oh shit today when we went back to lucias classroom some primaary school girl just stood at the door and stared and stared. so of course i did. awww her big big eyes damn cute, but of course i won, she looked away first. but then again thats only possible for pri school kids. not .... lol.

i jsut slcaked, and blew balloons until 5.30 in school while waiting for moms library to end. searched for mroe pop stuff and now i'm just about 5 secs away to call yz to send me the power point slidess!!!! haha kim seah is going to laugh non stop tmr while we are presenting. our home econs project is on tampons..

haha oh! there is project runway tonight!!! :D

eaten. burrp. *Tuesday, May 19, 2009*

SPIDER PIG

suddenly got reminded form that uber lame song from the simspons today :D

i heard appalling news in the morning. hello -.- looks whos the one taking advantage of your mom. stupid spoiled brat, you guys are all spoiled hello.

if i took advantage of my mom to do things or to do well in school i'd be in like what, best class by now. think properly lah, if you want to do well theres something called working hard -.- no point critisising people just because you arent doing enough to get yourself noticed or something, anyway not my problem. if you want to continue living in self denial and thinking you are the best when actually all you are is just some hypocrite go ahead.
and do you think i think i'm the best. oh pls. if you try your best definitely some results will show. but i've done the best i can, so instead of grumbling at the side why not you pick your fucking ass off the floor and do something -.-
and you dont have to keep repeating it. all you can do is boast about your friends and not yourslef. then you are pathetic. really pathetic. all i hear is 'oh she's very ..." "she can do this this this... " i like that friend too and i definitely agree she can do all that. so why dont you shut your mouth and find something of yours to boast about.
you only depend on someone who alr has that experience right? means youre a total loser and a coward to try new things. always depending on them to tell you what to do.
you think having a mom in the school is cool? so no. not if teachers take that advantage to make your life misareable or even people like YOU. esp talking about things you arent even sure off. last year you even wanted me to get my mom to call one of the teachers so you could ask about one of your projects? hello, it was a dnt teacher. and that project wasnt even important. it wasnt even graded. and you got really angry just because i told you my mom definitely wouldnt have mr sams number -.- how stupid can you get. you think every teacher has each others number? retard.

i hate it. i hate it when people say i get sutff because of my mom. really it sucks. what if you were me and people were saying stupid things like that about you. you make me sound as if i was totally incapable of things. in case you havent noticed, i may not be the best but at least i try hard and at some point achieve something small.

eaten. burrp. *Tuesday, May 19, 2009*

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Monday, May 18, 2009

RUM RAISINNNN

"in her shoes" is really taking long to load. so i'm spending my FREE TIME :D to blog while waiting.
ohmygaed ohmygawd. no more tests for the term. no more! :D :D :D but of course the sucky school system doesnt let you get away with anything. i have about 2 projects to complete this week and non of which i know what my friends are doing to the scripts i sent them. but of course i trust my friends so i'm not so worried :D

what i AM worried about is that haoyi has my beret and i dont know if she herself knows that/ oh gosh i'm worried. ):

i have a craving for rum raisin!!! strawberry ice creams great but nothing beats rum raisin ohmygawd. i'm going to spend my birthday eating one whole tub of that. but of course ihave to convince mom to get it for me.

mr leow and dujia are suckers. i swear you better not laugh at me again you disusting man

eaten. burrp. *Monday, May 18, 2009*

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Sunday, May 17, 2009

MAGNIFIED

mom was very very very extremely annoying yesterday. friggin biased. and she kept pms-ing, i had such a terrible week alr and there she had to scream scream and nag nag nag.

the first thing peiling said when she saw me in the morning was : "how was your np test?"
pfft i just told her i ddint feel like talking about np at all. so thank god she didnt probe further.
haha si ens so sweet. she came with a shirt today that had the words "cheer you up" on it. haha she told me i was so freaking gloomy last week she just bought this shirt when she saw it. lol. haha
did i seem THAT gloomy last week. haha actuall this week too.
but youth did help alot (: esp worship. managed to forget about everything.

haha then i went to meet jeraldine at compass point (: and now i'm watching monster inc befroe i have to learn ting xie that is... TOMORROW!!!!

rochelle : haha dont be silly its alright now, relax and cheer up okay
bing: haha told you its alright(: your encouragement is all i need yea (: i dont tell you cause i dont feel like reminding myself about it again by repeating it to someone
aishyn: haha i was satisfied for once. 14.08. i managed to hit and a (: hahaha you woill do fine no worries. you can jsut fly anyway! :D
huichun: hahah aye its great to hear from you (: really great. haha i chall look forward to that sleepover :D you do realise we live right next to each other yes.

eaten. burrp. *Sunday, May 17, 2009*

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Saturday, May 16, 2009

CANCERRRRR

mommy is annoying
yes i will get mouth cancer
yes i will get head cancer from the shampoo
yes i will get stomach cancer from eating improperly
yes i will get eye cancer (?) from watching tv
yes i will get leg cancer from washing my feet immediately when i reach home
yes i will get brain cancer from thinkning too much of np
yes i will get skin cancer from drawing on my hand all the time
yes i will get back cancer from having such bad sitting posture

tantockseng hospital here i come

eaten. burrp. *Saturday, May 16, 2009*

YOU KNOW WHAT.
i am fucking pissed now. do you know how much effort i put in last yr in np. i practically chased after ya'll to take attendance, collect forms or money. i was a effing tc for 9 months while people who were only there for 3 months could complain? erm, photocopying notes that "broke" your arm. and others put in even more so i dont see why those who dont know whats going on can actually say that people arent aware of how much we screwed up.

i see people talking more about their "interesting" experiences with ma'ams or bloodstained shirts other than thinking. like thinking if it helps or affects us positively in any way. if it doesnt do anything why bother? that aint the main point.

dont you dare say i wasnt aware of how much we all disappointed wanlin. dont you dare say that. HOW LONG DID I TAKE TO CALL YA'LL UP SO YOU GUYS COULD GO FOR AN ACTIVITY TO PREPARE YA'LL FOR ONE FUCKING TEST. HOW LONG! I HAD TO PUT UP WITH WHINING AND FAKE EXCUSES NOT TO GO. AND ALL THAT CRAP ABOUT "IF SHE DOESNT GO I ONT GO" IT SUCKS YOU KNOW.

I WASNT EVEN GOING FOR THAT ACTIVITY MYSELF AND I WOULDNT BE LEARNING OR PREPARING FOR ANY TEST. the only fucking reason i did that was because if only 2 people go, wanlin will be disappointed. i could have just said " screw her i dont care. i'm not the tc, i'm not benefiting from it. so why shld i help"

i dont even dare look at her in the eye. and i feel disappointed with myself for not doing my best. but if i keep trying AND STUPID PEOPLE DONT EVEN NOTICE A PEANUT, WHAT HELP DOES THAT DO? how does that bond our squad?

i wanna know the squads opinion on things. like for our squad item. or even simple things to bond our squad.
and when we propose stuff and ya'll cans ay is "SO GROSS! FIND SOMETHING ELSE LAH! CAN YOU GUYS PICK SOMETHING TO BOND THE SQUAD BETTER" OI! you want you think of it can! always blaming me and some people for not trying hard enough. does the squad only consist of me. of course not. i dont like telling ya'll what to do. i wanna listen. i wanna have a meeting where i actually have your opinions to listen to. I DO NOT WANT TO SEE MURDER BOOKS IN MY FACE . and everytime wanlin gets disappointed i feel fucking bad.

i only have np to help me get confident. and i'm trying really hard in both my studies and in np. its a walk in the park for smart people cause what do they have to worry about being looked down on? if youre smart the world practically worshis you. its a battle for me everyday because i need to do well in np and in studies. getting an a for me is like hitting gold. while those scholars just find it so normal.
i'm fighting to even hit an a2 for some subjects. and i'm also fighting to do well in np to not disappoint the ma'ams. if you smart asses alr do well in your studies why not try even harder for np. and its even a battle with the teachers alone mrs chan just told me "you continue like that i tell you mom"
i was scolded for the slightest things.
its mroe exhausting for me than you guys okay.

jtc was the worst. i didnt go for any trainings at all. jeraldine venetia and i really tried. and i was sort of hoping that was the time i could depend on some of ya'll to lead me to teach me stuff i didnt know.
instead it was just me and litong trying to tie the boundary. me lighting up fires for all of ya'll. me struggling in nearly every part cause i didnt go for training. i was rushing through food proposals and finding a group name. thinking of a performance. you guys were so much clearer on what was expected. you even had time to discuss during activity. instead its me thinking of a group name? and rushing with some people to think of a cheer? me and some people staying back so we could help our group finihs the food proposals? i hate it y'know. i hate trying to lead the squad cause i know i cant do it wihout your help. i hate telling you guys what to do in meetings. i want ya'll to stop listening to me and give your opinions instead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no no i'm not saying i'm doing it to prove i'm the best. im saying i'm doing it cause i dont want to disappoint the ma'ams. kay? so dont misunderstand. and i know you wil hate me. but i hope you get the message. i know ya'll try too. but jiayou kay. dont break down when you are stressed. and for those who are holding aic positions now, its time for you to show your leadership skills.

hint to deco aic : ic has been sending me countless messages to get you online.

eaten. burrp. *Saturday, May 16, 2009*

EXHAUSTED

no no no i'm too tired
i'm too tired to hear you say how terrible i've done for drill test kay? this whole week has been FRIGGIN exhausting. and to tell you as much as i want to, i just couldnt be bothered about np. kay i only started studying for theory at 3 o clock so at least i managed to memorise most parts of the sizing drill. i just, tried to put in effort yea, but looking at what happened last yr (nothing was acknowledged) when i really tried to put in effort i am half way through to giving up.

haha dujia is an idiot. she gave us a surprise chinese test right after home common test period.
luckily music test was partly slacking.
haha shit i'm stuck on that stupid hairspray song

this week has made me EXHAUSTED. like really.

eaten. burrp. *Saturday, May 16, 2009*

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Thursday, May 14, 2009

FOR THE LAST TIME :

will i ever minus SEVEN careless marks off my math paper.
will i ever screw up incline pull up. 3 more to an a! and thats because miss foo didnt accept three:/
will sit here and blog when i have 3 tests tmr i have not studied for
i will ignore my np test totally because i have totally lost my confindence there

apart from staying back on wednesday, i have TOTALLY IGNORED NP ! and i'm telling you. it feels damn good. it feels really good not to have 3 or more messages coming in every minute reminding you about np be it from ma'ams or squadmates.
it feels great not having to look at your 3rd class notes for the whole week
it feels fantastic to not have to worry about your boots cause you have other friggin important tests to study for
it feels FUCKING good to think only about school and not have to even LOOK at anything phrased in short sentences that makes you feel as big as an ant.
okay horny people dont think sick evertime i say "it feels ..." oh gross.

hans tuition really makes me destress. eventhough its chinese! (:
i'm tired, i havent even taken out my contacts yet, thank gawd mom aint home. okay i hear her car

eaten. burrp. *Thursday, May 14, 2009*

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Wednesday, May 13, 2009

FOR THE FIRST TIME:

i'm satisfied with my napfa timing (:
i am not prepared for neither geog nor maths because i'm only studying half half of each.
ten yr series is driving me mad (math)
i studied for 4 hours straight while enduring the blardy hot weather
i poked mrs teos belly button :O feels like a spring
i killed (ANOTHER!) a beetle in 5 secs

eaten. burrp. *Wednesday, May 13, 2009*

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Monday, May 11, 2009

I WILL PAINT IT PINK

i bet with you i'm sure to die this week. you might as well pay me the money now.
theres english descriptive writing+spelling on wed, math AND geog on thurs home ec and THEORY on friday ): and both geog and home econs project to finish up on. i'm not even sure if ting xie has been moved to next week or not. :/

anyway church helped me alot (: i forgot all about 3rd class during cell and i have decided that i shld get over it.
but of course somehow np always come back to haunt you. not only in the form of dreams, but itn reality. kay. i just wasted 5 friggin hourse of my time hellping my squadmates chiong their proposal ideas while i could have alr finished my stupid geog project AND revised for math. hmph. ): i didnt even complete ting xie. i told myself to finish up geog on the com right after ting xie (decided to skip the cheng yu's first) but of course msn distracted me again. 3 o clock became 6 and nothing has been done. now its 8. finally finihsed some of my geog. i hope i didnt do anything wrong cause i dont wanna redo it!

kay i'm going to finish my map then i will DEFINITELY NOT TOUCH NP. and revise math (:

next is americas next top model at 11!!! (:

eaten. burrp. *Monday, May 11, 2009*

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Saturday, May 9, 2009

DONT HAVE TO STATE THE OBVIOUS

i just lost the very long pot i made, roar.
what can i say about 3rd class drills test. i can only say that the next impossible thing my squad can do it to surprise the ma'ams cause we've disappointed them so many times. c'mon we all know that, it'd be a lie if we all kept quiet.
i had a very very long phone call with l when i got back. i cant tell you how much we all noticed the amount of effort effing wlm put in to help us. sometimes i almost hate her for trying so hard because it makes the feeling even worse when we all do what we do best...sigh..

i screwed it up so bad. it was not surprising really that i've just disappointed 100000 people in my life, including myself.
i cant believe how supportive my friends in school were. and those in cell grp did nothing but to encourage me and all aye. all the ex seniors, seniors even those from other schools and the ci's from ap. -.-
i'm such a fucking failure.

this feeling will be in here for a really long time. i even had that extra 15 min to help, but i just made it worse aye.

if you asked me to die right now i'd ask you to let me redo my 3rd class first.

eaten. burrp. *Saturday, May 09, 2009*

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Tuesday, May 5, 2009

BLISTERRR

i hate socks with holes! i was totally rushing today to find a perfect pair but to no avail. and drill test today was just torture on my heel. blister man. sneakers arent the best choice for school shoes but i do love em (:

i failed my lit test again. no surprise. mrs chan is just biased again and she doesnt even give any encouragement. she just demoralises the whole class. i think i cant do lit anymore. i really cant. where did al those a1's from last yr go? i'm always trying so hard but sometimes sticking to simple ways just help lots.
history was another disappointment. i got full marks for everything except for the source based questions. and again it was because i had elaborated too much and killed my blardy self. sigh.. i like onl got a2 frggin annoying. I WILL DO BETTER NEXT TIME!

house meeting was.. haha xinyi tried to get me to try out for 800 m. dont be insane. i cant run to save my life. unless wlm is er, coming after me or something. actually i'm not even sure if i'll do that then.
oh litong is SO mean ): today she took one look at me and she just said. "you look like wlm" F*** :P. but yea erm, ahem.

drill practice... omg. she told us to practice tukar by ourselves and somehow i dont think i can ever like, lead my squadmates or anything. we took so long to get started and i couldnt even do it properly after that. and yea...i'm such a failure man.

p.e tmr. oh please not another six rounds. anna leong i swear i will kill you or just vomit on the spot or something if you make us run another six rounds (:

mr loh is late for tuition!

eaten. burrp. *Tuesday, May 05, 2009*

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Sunday, May 3, 2009

ALL OF MY DAYS

i really like sundays (; the funnest part is from youth worship and onwards. pop was doing teaching todayyeee. it IS quite weird to have your dad teach you. thank god he said "i'm not supposed to ask you questions"
"you are supposed to be the one asking"
haha anyways now that i am safe i shall just keep quiet.
cell grp was just fun and of course the stuff we talked about was meaningful (must seem like a pastors daughter eh)(: charmaine is hilarious. (:

haha x men quite cool but its a bit its like spiderman and star wars mix tgt ( -.- )

S factor + red thread + singtel grid girls thingy are just friggin retarded singaporean shows no offence. i really hate the way those shows are made. and s factor is just a stupider and more bimbotic than americas next top model. 9i only watch it for the photography) and the celebrity (?) game shows media corp comes up withmis effing retarded u tell you.

joe is scaring me with all the scary np stories ):

eaten. burrp. *Sunday, May 03, 2009*

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Friday, May 1, 2009

HONEY STARS!

haha shit i have a bad habit of leaving things undone. so far the only work i have completed today is just making notes for history. i shld stop slacking!

haha anyway i watched knowing online, omg the show is quite weird

{edit}
i take back what i said just now. moms an effing bitch who is totally inconsiderate and moves at snail pace. only when people get angry will she start to move her ass. and if it benefits her she starts to selfishly ignore everyone and only do what she likes.

bitch

eaten. burrp. *Friday, May 01, 2009*

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