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Friday, February 20, 2009

I DONT WANT TO BE A Crazy Idiot!

activity today was super fun, everyone said it was great. everyone except for ME. because i was NOT THERE. very IRRINNOYING!

first thing mom said to me when i came home was "my daughters celebrated my birthday for me, i'm so touched" and i'm like huh? daughterS? junyin was at camp, yy was just (well what can i say) and i was at ap how to celebrate.

OMG HER DAUGHTERS. -.- very very very ... i dunno what to say. exactly how many seniors of mine are in four truth?

i am growing fat. i hate annual parade. i WANT TO SPEND TIME WITH MY SQUAD. i cant stand it! at least there is unit cip and unit outing coming up (: happy happy. oh and i like mondays cause i can dance with yijing. hahaha. i hate it! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

very irritating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i feel so *ugh* i'm missing out on so much like WHAT THE HELL. I'M SICK OF AP I'M SICK SICK SICK OF IT. I SHOULDNT HAVE PUT MY NAME DOWN IN THE FIRST PLACE. PEOPLE THERE ARE REALLY NICE AND ALL BUT I'M JUST NOT CONCENTRATING CAUSE I'M THINKING OF HOW MUCH FUN THEYRE HAVING IN SCHOOL. I'M SICK OF IT. I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT!!!!!!!!! by the time ap ends they'll probably be doing drils and pt again. no squad interaction no camp stuff. actually it doesnt matter. i just wanna have fun with my squadmates. I'M CURSING RIGHT NOW. thank god mom's asleep.

i'm thinking of nothing else now but how stupid ap is and i realise how much i enjoy activity.

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still i have to make the best of it. effing shit

eaten. burrp. *Friday, February 20, 2009*

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