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Tuesday, December 2, 2008

I HATE MY MOM TTCTTM

tan siew kim is the worst mom ever on earth. ya'll may not know but shes just so full of herself. she thinks she's real pretty and has sooo much class just because she thinks she looks like audrey hepburn. WAKE UP MOM. youre not the best in the whole wide world. dont you know there are people out there you who hate you.

you dont give a shit if what youre doing annoys people. so long as it make you happy you feel fine. stop being such a effing bitch. you so fucking biased towards junyin and yingyu. just because theyre so smart and so perfect. you listen to every piece of crap they tell you. you buy every little bit of trash they wanna buy. more than half the time we return from shopping and i'm the only one holding a bloody paper bag that doesnt contain stuff that i bought but some stupid identical plain topshop shirt of which junyin has 10 thousand at home. or another pair of shoes from charles and keith to add to your collection the shoe cupboard can barely contain.

youre such a BLOODY CHEAPSKATE WOMAN. i need something and you either put off buying it until the price drops or you say "go to the cheapest place possible" sometimes you even say "okay soon. we'll go out soon" but you never do cause its just part of some stupid plan of yours to try and make me forget about it. you dont ever see the disappointment on my face. thats because your just wrapped up in that silly little world of yours. you totally ignore me when junyin and yingyu are around. you just ignored me this morning and spent so much time with junyin. i was so happy when you called my name but you were just telling me to clear up the computer area. i sound like a little kid but i dont care. i dont give and shit about what you feel anymore woman. its time you stopped thinking only about yourself.

whereever i put my things you tell me to clear up. i place my school books on my shlef you say it looks to cluttered and you want me to shift it to somewhere, outer space most probably
you hate buying me stuff. only if i desperately need it then would you consent. but even so you start complaining me of wasting your money and wont let the matter drop. if i buy a new bag/ pair of shoes/ EVEN SCHOOL SOCKS i have to use it for 3 years while yingyu can get all her freaking crap from ervery branded shop she passes in town.

you're no different in school. you dont notice how stupid your colleages can be. how effing annoying it is to have to walk around and have people know your a teachers daughter.
i'm the one having to suffer from all the stupid teachers monitering me as though i was some specimen in the zoo or expecting me to produce a1's at hyper speed. i can barely walk around the school without bumping into a teacher who gives me that sick friendly smile that looks more like a smirk. and that stupid stupid stupid bitch- teacher- from -hell pan lao shi lovesss to take advantage of the fact that i'm your daughter. she finds it disapproving even when i go to toilet BEWTWEEN lesson. as though i was just supposed to commune my fat ass on that uncomfortable plastic chair and stare at the graffiti-ed table all the time i'm in school.

i dont even have to tell you the things that happen in school. you have miss dawn lim for that. "mrs tan your daughter sneezed 3 times in class today" "mrs tan your daughter seems to be good friends with vanessa low" "mrs tan your daughter didnt get a a1 for bio this term" " mrs tan your daughter answered a question in my class today" "mrs tan your daughter ate blue bowl for recess just now" "mrs tan" "mrs tan" "mrs tan" shut the hell up!
its no different in np either. you even went up to one of my seniors and said "thats my daughter, cannot bully her arh" WHAT THE FUCK BITCH. YOU THINK ITS SO FUN? you make me sound like a princess or some idiot mummys girl who has to stick with you 24/7.

you dont seem to care about what i need. you scold me for being in a bad mood. you scold me for buying a new pen when the other one still has some ink. seriously do you expect me to only have ONE pen by my side. in p5 when i bought the big big eraser you complained i waste money and you wanted me to use the eraser until SEC 4. kns. can you stop being so cheapskate for like even 5 minutes.

you just hate everything i do. my results, the decisions i make, the way i position my books on the shelf, my face, even the colour of the wall i picked for my room.
i'm so sick of your effing shit. stop being so stupid and old fashioned. sometimes you gotta get out of your own world and start listening to other people. stop thinking about only yourself.

eaten. burrp. *Tuesday, December 02, 2008*

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