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Friday, November 7, 2008

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i'm so annoyed with myself cause i got yijing to send me her letter early but i forgot to print it out and pass it to the ma'ams. >:( argh. i told you i'm a lousy tc.

alright, i admit i was reading your blogs today. but i just came across it from my friends lj "friends list"
and i'd like to make things clear i dont enjoy the fact that my moms a teacher >:( i'd prefer to be like... normal?
i hate it when people go " her moms a teacher shes not supposed to do anything wrong" " her moms a teacher shes not supposed to be so rude" " her moms a teacher shes so boastful about it." ugh. it irks me. pan lao should understand that too.
anyway i wasnt planning to be a princess in np just because my moms a teacher. erm, if i wanted to be a princess i'd probably not join np. i'm probably a burden to all of ya'll sec3s now. i'd just like to say i am sorry for the way i've been acting. but it wasnt anything intentional. maybe i shouldnt have been so rude. i admit it. and i should. i've just been embarassing myself all this while.
anyway i dont wanna keep thinking on this matter so i'll just say i'm awfully sorry and yeah i've been a bitch sometimes.
but who the heck goes around with a big sign board saying "MY MOMS A TEACHER BOW DOWN TO ME" -.- i dont like people to know who's daughter am i cause its annoying. geddit. i dont act like a mummy's girl and i dont take advantage of it and depend on her all the time. when something goes wrong in school or in np i dont complain to my mom and ask her to come roaring in and saving me. d'you actually think i'd stoop as low as that? i face the consequences of my actions and wont ask anybody to defend me. i dont tell my mom half the things that happen in school. i hardly even talk to her.
its not easy one bit alright. you said "youre nothing without your mom. nothing" pfft. dont you know i'd rather be nothing than have students know that i'm a teachers daughter? did i come into np shouting "my mom is mrs tan sk" to everybody? i didnt even say a nut about it! you people took care of that for me! it spread like fire until by the 3rd activity everybody knew.

what could i do? :"(
i'm really sad that i tried everything to shut up about my mom and now i'm being blamed.

and its even worse with the teachers. they expect you to ace in every subject and be some little "a" making machine. miss dawn lim expects me to ans all her questions every lesson. she even says " qijun you should know the ans" just because my mom used to be a bio teacher. when miss yee is teaching a new subject she looks at me and expects me to tell her all the things i alr know about it. well i dont. i'm not even going to talk about pan lao shi cause that would be a book. not a post.
6 years in primary school i've been so annoyed by teachers and trying to keep quiet about it but some student always seems to blurb it out. i didnt some to sec school to have that fact rubbed in my face. its not easy so dont think it is.
i joined np hopeful that for at least half the year no one would know about me being whos daughter. but my mom actually went to tell a student there "shes my daughter arh dont bully her" and didnt even tell me. if it werent for lucia who heard it i wouldnt even know. i was super angry at my mom okay.

people think its fun. and some of my classmates think its cool but it is so not. thanks arh. my mom just told me yesterday (i didnt tell her about this matter -.-) and said "my three truth students told me that now everyone knows your my daughter" -.- whats the point of doing that man.

and see i dont have to go around shouting that. several sec3s i dont even know have alr done the job for me. >:(

but all this doesnt cover up the fact that i was rude. that was my fault. entirely. so can we just stop and forget about all this?

eaten. burrp. *Friday, November 07, 2008*

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